My Heart Breaks

Uuuuggg. I’m in the midst of sleep-training my 9 month old. There is nothing harder than listening to your baby cry. Especially when you are supposed to just let them be, not go and fix the problem.

I do believe that in the end, we will all be better off. He has been sleeping better (once he’s asleep) and I have been sleeping better, which helps me fight off this nagging depression.

But boy-o-boy, my heart can only take so much of this. And his little face, with tears running down it, when I go in to check on him. HOW do people do this?

I’m hoping this crying lasts only a short while, and soon he will go to sleep on his own. That is the whole point of this deal, after all. If I  have to let him cry much longer, I’ll just say fooey on the whole thing and rock my sweet baby to sleep.



My babes had a doctor’s appointment the other day. Shots were involved. Not much fun. But it got me thinking about how many decisions we as parents have to make for our helpless little ones. I’ve never really researched for myself all these big controversial issues. I just hear one thing from one place and another thing elsewhere, and mash it up and come up with listening to whatever my doctor recommends.

Is this a wise course? Here is a site that seems to be slighty biased. If I would listen to them, vaccines can cause cancer, infertility, and liver disease. I found all that in a scan of the headlines they have published. Now, I will admit I am slightly biased the other way. As is this site, I would guess. Their tag line says “your best shot at good health”.

What I really want is the truth. Where are the actual studies? Who did them? Who interpreted them? Are they biased? Is the information that I get at the doctor’s up to date? Are the alternative medicine people just trying to scare me?